hi lovey love=)
so i'm feeling the slightest bit better about things. i don't necessarily regret you getting a g-tube. it was definitely what you needed. but daddy and i keep laughing (as synical as the laughter might be) because we came into the hospital almost 2 weeks ago thinking this was going to make feeding you so much easier, but we're going home with it being so much more complicated.
so after dr rodgers talked to us wednesday we had a better idea of what he found and therefore did in the or. there was a "knuckle" of bowel stuck down in your pelvis. and at first he saw just one hole in it and he thought he would just sew that back together and move on with it. but then when he pulled it out he saw 3 more holes. so he ended up cutting 8 inches out of your small intestine (that's about 10% of the whole thing-actually not too big of a deal in the long run) and pulling each cut end up to the surface of your tummy. right along the line of your original incision. i'll show you a picture soon. so now you have 3 holes up there. the one on your left side is where the original g-tube was. they'll now close that until we can use it again. the two others are called an ileostomy and a mucous fistula. these two are big and beefy red because it is plain and simple a little bit of your intestines sitting right there on your tummy. weird kinda. the one in the middle is only a few inches (on the inside, and outside) from the first one and it will now have an bag over it to catch all the yuck that comes from your stomach. it will also catch anything that you drink as we keep teaching you how to take a bottle. and then the one on the right side of your tummy will have (hopefully-they're going to try today) a new g-tube button on it and that's where we'll really feed you like we would've done through the g-tube in your stomach. you have lots of intestine below that last hole so you shouldn't have a problem absorbing what you need and growing and gaining weight like you should. but speaking of gaining weight, you've actually lost 14 ounches since you've been here. sweet skinny little face. that makes us very sad. you'll catch back up baby-no worries. all this is temporary. he said in 6-8 weeks he'll put your intestines back together. but that means another surgery. and we can't help but be pretty terrified of that now. but no use focusing on being scared.
so we're definitely a little overwhelmed at this point. we're not sure yet if we'll be able to feed you with a g-tube button through the mucous fistula....and if we can we definitely won't be able to just bolus feed you (the faster way) because there's no reservoir like you would've had if it had been in your stomach. we're hoping we can feed you most of your food through a continous feed overnight so we can still get you up and moving around and playing during the day. ugh. only 2 months. that's what i keep telling myself. and i can't believe that, a) not only do we have to start interviewing new nurses, but b) we now have to make sure she can handle all the issues that come along with these extra things on your tummy. but you're a very sweet girl. anybody worth being at our house will realize you're worth it;)
daddy is funny. he gets sad about this too but he handles it a little different than me and i like that. it's good for me and it lifts my spirits. example. we have named your two intestine nubs after two of your uncles, matthew and nathan. matthew is the one in the middle, the one that will have the ostomy bag on it. and nathan is the one where you get fed. did i tell you that you get to poop like normal? not into a bag? that's a good thing. you'll have some bile and stomach juices coming into the bag but not your poop. i realize this is again a weird topic but we're pretty happy about it=)
we're getting a few smiles. they are few and far between but they make our day every time. gigi got you smiling this morning by laughing like a crazy person. we got a picture of it:
here are some more. i realized i have lots of favorites.
ok that's all for now. love you sweets=)