wednesday...

hi sweet love=)

so wednesday we find out if you're getting a little brother or a little sister. can't wait can't wait=) and just as i predicted, i have definitely gotten more nervous and anxious about what we'll see on the ultrasound. not the gender - we would love to have another precious daughter and we would also love to be parents to a little boy - but i started thinking more and more about what if things aren't ok. what if this sweet babe is not healthy. what if it's a day like that day in april of 2008 and our whole world flips upside down in a matter of minutes?

we'd be ok. that's what would happen. God took care of us then and He's taking care of us now. our little family of four. but it's ok that i sure hope all is well, right??

as for the gender guessing: i have a boy feeling. i had a boy feeling within minutes of getting a positive pregnancy test. it's kinda hilarious, actually, because up until that moment i had always felt like our next child would be a girl. but 30 minutes after the positive test i just suddenly realized that in those 30 minutes when i was planning in my head or imagining this baby, it was a boy. so who knows what that means??? this pregnancy has been a little different - from week 6-14, like with catherine, i was nauseous 24/7. but with this one zofran didn't work at all and i have actually thrown up a couple times, and that didn't happen with catherine. sorry for the ridiculous details, i'm just gonna want to remember these things 10 years down the road=) and apparently i have this rash called "prurigo of pregnancy" where i itch all over and only get bumps after i start scratching. nice, huh?? so really. these things could mean absolutely nothing, but even before all of that started i had that little mama gut feeling that it was a sweet boy i was growing in there=) so it's gonna be hilarious and equally wonderful if it's a girl!!

there have been a few times when other people were pregnant that i had a strong feeling what they were having, and i was right. i thought my oldest brother was having a girl and he did, i thought my middle brother was having a boy and he did, i thought catherine was a girl, and i thought our sweet friends rachel and lance were having boy/girl twins and they did. i realize i sound like a mystical magical hippy putting any merit whatsoever in all of these things, but we'll see wednesday!!! gigi has never been right when she guessed what people were having, and i have never been wrong, and we both think this is a boy=) so the winds are a-changing for one of us this week!

ok. that's all. prayers for peace on wednesday are great appreciated=)

mommy/katie/i forgot who i was writing this to...

ps. this is from catherine. she said, while twinkling her fingers over the keyboard, "i want to work with you!" so this is what she typed: gr6ju 536y5trnjyettyrwrhcatherine