you're in surgery right now. they're gonna do a bronchoscopy to make sure your airway looks alright, then they'll close up the hole where your trach was. to do this they'll cut out the area where the hole is now to get rid of the tract, then they'll stitch up each layer-trachea, muscle, skin. so it's just the tiniest bit more complicated than it sounds. they gave you some versed about 30 minutes before they took you back to the OR and you were hi-larious! giggling at everything and so so sweet. we got a video of some of it but that was before the medicine kicked in full force. daddy and i were cracking up...right along with you. it made mama feel better=) i was nervous about the surgery to begin with, but maybe more nervous about you being terrified as they took you away from us to the OR. but as it turns out, you gladly went to lauren the anesthesiologist blowing us kisses and waving and not fussing one bit. score one for versed, i guess!
so i'm writing this letter to pass the time and not think about them doing surgery on your sweet little throat. you'd think i'd be used to this, right? i don't think i am. or maybe it's just because you're older and you have a little more of an idea what's going on. and therefore you don't like it. unless they give you versed, that is=)
we got back from the lake last night at 8pm. and then left the house at 4:30 this morning to get you to charlottesvile. that was a side note. what i want to tell you is the lake was so much fun!!! you learned a new phrase: "OH BOY!!". you're so funny saying it. you get very proud of yourself. you danced and sang and danced and sang with gigi and played with jackson so sweetly. you two missed anna cate so much and can't wait to see her next month!! another new thing you love is to hold our hands. you're such a little sweetie-you'll reach up from the back seat so we can all hold hands while we're riding down the road. you met a new doll anna (anna cate's old doll) at the lake and fell in love. you and pearl and anna had lots of fun. (pearl is your other doll. i don't know if i've told you about her but she's been a big hit ever since she joined our family a couple weeks ago.) you loved boat rides even more than last year. i think you would've gladly jumped over the front as we sped along the lake if we hadn't been holding on to you. i could go on and on, but i'll let the pictures speak for themselves!
i love you sweet baby. i am anxiously looking forward to you being out of surgery. i'll miss your "neck poots" and your blow hole.
ps-dr rodgers just called while i was uploading the pictures and said you're all finished and you're starting to wake up in the OR. he said you did great and were stable the whole time. your airway looked perfect and he stitched it up with no problem. we should probably go home early tomorrow morning. well done sweet girl=)
you LOVE to rock in rocking chairs.
i think your face is hilarious here. i think you might've been pooping.